Really been thinking about what to say in times like these. We have been going through so much pain, hurt and loss that I’ve been at a loss for words on what to say. The reason I am writing this is because I’ve been seeing that so many people, are losing their loved ones and it’s so hard to express how it feels. Since the year started, even before COVID hit us many of us have been dealing with a lot of pain. It is so difficult to explain the feeling. It actually has no expression.
I lost my grandmother beginning of the year and it has been a journey for all of us-children, grandchildren and great grandchildren alike. We had planned to get her do so many things when the year started, we didn’t know that she would not come into the year with us. It is such a tragic loss that no one can easily understand, unless they have been through it as well.
Life starts, and ends so abruptly. We are never prepared for it. You know how sometimes someone who knows that they are departing lets their loved ones know that they’ll be leaving soon and that everything will be okay and we just need to continue life without them? It’s never easy no matter how it’s said. I wasn’t there when my grandma passed away, but the person who was with her told me that she said she wanted to rest. That hit me hard, in such a way that I knew she was prepared to go, but we weren’t ready to see her leave.
We all grieve in different ways and just to have someone be there for you is powerful. It is sad that now we are giving virtual hugs as we have been told to stay away from each other, but surely and honestly my heart goes out to you who has lost a loved one.
Words can never be enough to express ones condolence, but we hope with each hand that holds you, God who comforts you and knows the pain and each contribution towards laying your loved one will show how much we care and want to ease the burden of the loss.
There’s a new normal that begins almost immediately after a burial and all the good byes and trust me it’s not an easy one because it becomes a journey of acceptance and trying to move on. They say time heals all wounds but time doesn’t take care of this one. It is a piece of us removed. It is a piece that cannot be returned, a piece that will always be missing. But with each step we take we do our best to relive their memory and walk in their footsteps as we strive to “live the new normal” without them.
My heart is raw.